10 years..

 Wow.. how has it already been 10 years since I last visited this place... 

times have changed; many things have happened in the past 10 years, and I don't even know where to begin.

There are just still so many things that I wish I had let go of, forgetting about them and not wanting to remember any parts of it, but things are just hard where they will just pop out into your head, into your thoughts throughout the day. Also thinking back to how I was last time, but wow, I don't even recognize that part of me anymore. like it was someone that I didn't know that was me before. 

went through a hell of things, fell in love, fell out of love. went through a hella ride in a relationship. To date, I still don't understand this: What is love? Will there ever be someone who takes me for who I am? I guess this is a question that can never be answered in the meantime.

Got a full-time job and now gonna leave the current job, next up looking for a new one. Times have indeed changed. The people who used to be around me are not all here anymore; some left, some didn't continue keeping in touch, some fell out of place, and some had to be distanced...  

Who would have known about all the things that I had to go through to reach today? clearly, not me. Well, it has definitely been a ride since then. 10 years, some things still don't change, don't they? 

Coming back here feels like I'm back in my safe space, in a sense where nobody knows about this, nobody would have figured that I would be back here, on this platform.

There's just too much in me to say, and that's it for now. And till the next time I step in here again, I do hope the me that comes back to this space will be even happier compared to now.

with love xx

me